Steffy

Things have really changed. I just got finished reading Dann's livejournal, and I'm all teary eyed. I miss having everyone here. I miss being able to run to someone with a stupid problem and just talk for hours about how crappy and truly dumb it is. I miss having people to talk to period.
I have news, and it's not all that big of news, but it kind of is to me. I just miss everyone so much! I miss my Sydney butt. All I have is fatty and he isn't as great as Sydney! I miss you guys, please call me anytime!

Are you gonna live your life wonderin' standing in the back lookin' around?
Are you gonna waste your time thinkin' how you've grown up or how you missed out?
Things are never gonna be the way you want.
Where's it gonna get you acting serious?
Things are never gonna be quite what you want.
Or even at 25, you gotta start sometime.
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go.
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Are you gonna live your life standing in the back looking around?
Are you gonna waste your time?
Gotta make a move or you'll miss out.
Someone's gonna ask you what it's all about.
Stick around nostalgia won't let you down.
Someone's gonna ask you what it's all about.
Whatcha gonna have to say for yourself?
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go.
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Crimson and clover, over and over.
Crimson and clover, over and over.
Our house in the middle of the street, why did we ever meet?
Started my rock 'n roll fantasy.
Don't don't, don't let's start, why did we ever part?
Kick start my rock 'n rollen heart.
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go.
So come on Davey, sing me somethin' that I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Here tonight.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine
I wanna fall in love tonight.

I was at work today, and the gentleman at the window next to mine looked pretty upset. Quite a few people came up and patted him on the shoulder, and he had a tissue. When the transaction was over I asked the teller next to me what happened to the guy, and she was like nothing that I know of, I just closed out a guardian account for him. So come to find out his son just died at the age of 13. I don't know what exactly happened except he was in the hospital.
So me and the other teller went and gave the guy a hug and gave him our deepest sympathies, and I told him I would have as many people as possible to pray for him and his family.
So I'm asking anyone who prays to say a little prayer for this family... This year will be pretty tough for them, we found out also the boys birthday is 4 days before christmas, he would've been 14 this year.

Just a quicky... Doubt anybody has me as a buddy anymore, but oh well. I just thought I'd post.
I just feel compelled to comment. I'm not sure why. I'm tired and about to go to bed, I just had to say something that is on my mind. I'm not even 19 years old and I'm in my downward stretch... It feels odd. I have a full time job, which I will probably keep for quite sometime.... I'm practically married, except for the legal aspect of being married. We live together and we have a cat together. And it's like we have two children, two wonderful adult boys... Well they're the ages of adults, at least! I'm happy. I'm more happy than I've been in a while, I absolutley know I am never going to have to think about the future, about who I will be with, and where I will be. It doesn't matter now, because me and Brandon made it through the first huge obstacle and we decided our future that day we decided to move in together. We are each others one, and that is the best feeling I have felt in quite sometime. Now I must go to bed! Goodnight!

Just wow, that's all I can say! War of the World's is now my all time favorite movie. It scared the crap out of me, and I absolutely love the ending. Which I won't mention because hopefully everyone else wants to see it. Thank you H.G. Wells for such an awesome story!

Just wow!

The stupidity of medicine these days amazes me. And the morality of doctors baffles me.

I was told a week ago that there was a lump in my breast, and it could be a swollen gland, or since my mother and my father's mother had breast cancer, that that is always a chance. That is ALL I was told, and I was told to make an appointment in a months time to see if it was still there.

When I decided to not wait a month, since one week has been absolute toture, the doctor decides to say that I didn't want to listen and he told me to just stop drinking caffeine! NO ONE TOLD ME THAT! So I've decided to find a new doctor, stop with caffeine for a month or so, and go back. If it's still there then I'll just go from there, but until then I am just going to pretend it is a syst and stopping with the caffeine will make things better!

If only the technology could be accompanied by some doctors who are not just in the business for money. I truly believe all this happened because one greety doctor wanted more money.............. It really ruins a person's perception of medicine. *sigh*

In recent events I have decided to change a little of my future. I have set my life on the path of becoming a elementary school teacher. And that sounds really excellent, but I have also wanted to test another so called skill of mine, writing. I enjoying reading more than anything, and writing is actually very relaxing to me.

And maybe there is someone out there who reads this and wants to help out a little, and I will truly appreciate that help, and maybe this is a hopeless attempt. I want to start writing, just on the side, and see where that takes me. Someone suggested an advice site, and that sounds great, but I have no clue how to start that up.

So if there is anything you have please, comments, questions, complaints. I need a stepping stone, and maybe someone has that prepared for me! Thanks again!

I am very slowly loosing my voice.. I think it is because of how cold the room has been that I have been sleeping in. I woke up this morning and couldn't raise my voice louder than a whisper, and when I tried it HURT! Hopefully since last night was my last night here, I will get my voice back, and it won't go away anymore!

I have my biology and my art history II exams tomorrow night. I am so ready for school to be over. I feel like a huge weight will be lifted off my shoulders, and then I can have time to think without having to think of the stupidity of school.

My grades shouldn't be bad. I got an A in precalculus, and my american literature class.... GGRRR. That will probably be a B. I really wanted an A. But I had to get an 85% on the final, and there is a chance he will mark too much off. I got an 85% on my research paper in there. Which made me super mad. It was pretty good, but the fact that he hates Edgar Allan Poe, and I like Poe made all the difference. My teacher didn't see eye to eye with my >OPINION<, so he decided to deduct points for that. Never ever take Mr. Berneman(?) for american literature... To get an A in biology I have to get an 85% on my final, and for art history I have to get a 96% on my final. Both are possible, but will mean that the rest of tonight and tomorrow will be filled with me studying like crazy!

Wish me luck!

I failed my biology test on evolution. And I laughed and joked about it all class with everyone else, and our teacher got a kick out of it. Then me and some lab partners went out for a snack to study for the lab practical. And we all talked, and talked, and it made me realize what crap this past year has been.

And maybe there has been good in it, but overall a lot of stuff has happened. Most of which I have not actually sat down and thought about. I keep pushing it to the back of my mind, and convince myself it can wait til later. And I know that tomorrow I will be alright. I'll go to work flirt with some old guys and come home and study, and try my hardest to forget about all this stuff.

And maybe that's the answer, but what if I am supposed to sit down and really think about all this..... There's only one solution that would really help me out, it's just too bad it's no where close....
I need a hug.